I KNOW Internet.  I’ve been *kind of* absent.

Partly because well, Tim is home and he has a wii.  Golf is pretty much his I’m-on-vacation life…and I basically suck at wii golf so he always wins. Actually, I suck at any kind of golf.  My body wasn’t *meant* to play golf. Once, at a driving range, I managed to hit a golf ball 180 degrees into the air and smash the tin roof.  The guy next to me left.  And I’ve never been back. True story.

The other part?  Not *exactly* nice and I’m pretty much ripped apart from the stress and unknowns.  First, I’m pretty sure I’m fighting with my dad, even though I told him I didn’t want to fight and worse still, Maddie, our golden retriever, had a seizure on Christmas day…two more yesterday…and one this morning.  We just got home from the vet and they cannot find anything “wrong” with her…which basically points to epilepsy.

The fuck, universe?  What did I do?  And more to the point: What in the hell did Maddie do?

Maddie is pretty much perfect…so…

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As of now, Maddie isn’t on any meds and we’re watching and waiting.  She’s not having full blown (grand mal?) seizures but still…she’s having SEIZURES.

Pray they stop?  That it’s an isolated event?  That she leads a normal, healthy, long life?  I know some of you aren’t dog people…but think of Maddie as a non-dog?  She’s pretty much human save the fur and the walking-on-four-legs bit…she’s one of those dogs everyone loves because she’s so full of love and life and she actually listens.

She understands English, y’all.  For serious.  You tell her to do something and she cocks her head to one side, perks up her ears so she hears *exactly* what you’re saying and then does whatever you ask, flawlessly.

Also?  If you have or had a dog with seizures…any advice or help or tips…anything…are all very much appreciated.  We’re at a loss…

Totally sorry to be such a downer…but I kind of wanted explain my recent lack of enthusiasm…and my absence at all of your awesome blogs…which, by the way, I adore.